We'll see. I've lost attachment to this one. And the DA messages are piling up. I'll leave my writing up unless I decide to take it down. If anyone wants to still see my work lemme know and I'll give you the username. in other news I have final exams next week. Kill me now? And I'm reading a book called "By The Time YouR This I'll Be Dead" by Julie Anne Peters. For anyone that has read "Keeping You A Secret" or some of her other works this is good. Really sad but very intense. It brought some things back that I really didn't want to think about but I know I have to face. So I hope everyone is having a good new year. I'm off.

I've been having a hectic time the past few months. Between school and a lot of other things going on I haven't had much time for online. but i'll start posting stuff here again as well as cleaning out my gallery. I'll fill in the rest of the details later. :3 Ni-ni.

So I haven't been here often for about three months. Life has been kicking my ass so to speak for the last few months. I just don't know what to do. I'm stressed and feeling uncreative. My mind seems to be a chaotic mess of confusion. One minute things are great and then the next it looks like it may fall apart again. That's the only explanation I can really give right now. I'm just trying to avoid falling into the same pattern. I'm not depressed. Just confused. Well time for me to do homework so maybe I'll go into details later. Maybe.

And Happy Belated Birthday to niisan! I hope it's a good one. Or was.
And to all my friends on here I missed you guys. Hope things are going well for all of you.

Oh So Awesome DA friends (no order just typed in random):


If you aren't on here I am so very sorry, just send me a message and I'll add you on I love all of you .
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No I'm not dead. Although I may hack up a lung any minute now. I've been having awful allergies all weekend. But until then you still have to deal with me. Either way I've got some news to share. I'll try to remember what I was going to say so many times before. First off though, I know after spring break I almost completely disappeared from the internet. I was recovering from my teeth extractions yes. But I also just needed time to clear my head and try to work out some things. But I think now I'm somewhat better. Anyway here's the latest news from your adorable fairy. :3

School: Shitty as hell. Like I'm tired of it because I get depressed thinking about friend's graduations and all that. And my favorite teacher is leaving because the school district sucks. But I did win ILPC awards in newspaper. So I thought that was pretty exciting. I did my schedule finally which was confusing. And we got out for a couple days because of swine flu. And Niisan, you better be proud of me because I did participate in the Day of Silence! So did my friends Zach and a few other people. Although people thought it was stupid which I thought was retarded for lack of a better term. Next year I think I'll try to get more people involved. If people at my school are allowed to protest against abortion we should be allowed the same rights. Speaking of, I'm reading "The Laramie Project" for theatre tech class. It's a play written about a gay college student named Matthew Shephard who was brutally murdered in 1998. And it honestly made me cry. But I'm glad that I'm reading it. I think it's worth it in the end. Finally, I'm in this program called Upward Bound and this summer I'll be at the UNT dorm. It's a program to help you prepare for college. Personally, I'm more scared to death than excited. But maybe it will be okay.

Family: Parents are parents. What else can I say really? My brother is living with my mom now because he skipped school. And she found out he was doing other things. I think most of you can guess what that is. But I'm staying out of it. I've got my heart family and they're more than enough to make me happy in every way they can. I hope I do the same for them. I actually went with one of them to Build-A-Bear sunday to make bears with a special heart inside (geode that we picked together). Anyway when we got there, we saw these sparkling snow leopards that weren't even out officially! The store was one of the ones picked to see how well they'd sell. I think the universe is trying to tell me something. So now I have a blue bear named Celeste and a Leopard named Silver. I cuddle them both with me when I go to sleep. :3

Scarbrough Faire: So much fun this year! Even though the bodice my mom made for me isn't great :/ I still have fun. I'm now known as "Mew the gypsy"! And I'm also apart of the Flogging Brilliant Band. We play at pub sing and have toasts and limericks and song. And this past weekend, a woman dressed as the Mad Hatter actually proposed to her girlfriend! I almost cried with happiness. And everyone who was there cheered and the King and Queen came out to see us play. and one of my friends dragged me out to dance. I hope she doesn't mind that I stepped on her feet. I still will go as my fairy character before the faire is over. I guess I just needed a break. And it's been cold almost every weekend and I wanted to modify my costume some. I might post up some pictures soon as well. Especially of Twig. knows who I'm talking about. :3 Oh and I actually met a writer. A man named Peter S. Beagle. He wrote "The Last Unicorn" among other books. And he was a very nice, kind man. And I loved "The Last Unicorn". Haven't read "Tamsin" yet but I will. But I'm so happy about faire this year. I've made so many friends and feel so apart of everything. It makes me believe that magic is still real in the world.

Creative: Well I'm slowly beginning to write more again when I'm not in newspaper. I think now I've grown more mature as a writer. so I deleted a lot of old stories and stuff off this page. They're still in my computer somewhere but I wanted to start fresh. Except work that I really liked, things others liked and fan fiction I may edit later on. But other than that I intend to start with a new slate of ideas. And finally finish my novel. I've been keeping it in mind but haven't gotten to it. No more procrastinating. Oh and also... I GOT A FREAKING GUITAR!!! A Gibson Epitone. it's used but in great condition. I'm so excited. I think I'll be taking lessons but I guess we'll see. And I may end up learning to play the doom-beck (Type of drum). And on top of all that I'm in a podcast as Selina Kyle's cat Isis in Catwoman: Queen of Thieves. It's a podcast from Pendant Productions, freaking awesome and you should check it out! Nuff said. And the director is awesome, I met her last weekend and I get to meet her girlfriend too.

Cosplay: I finally got my Aerith cosplay! Hooray! Now I just need the wig and boots. Probably going to style the wig though. Then I need to get ahold of my girlfriend so we can plot the finer details of A-kon. I'm so happy I get to see her but at the same time I'm scared. Guess we'll see though how things work out. And I'll put up some pictures of my cosplay soon. :3

And finally, I think now I've come to terms with the fact that I'm gay. It took a person who I thought was a friend to look at me like I had some kind of disease. But now I'm much happier and I think I'll stick to being myself. Which is pagan and gay among other things. So now I think my perception on life has changed for the better. I've gotten ahold of my depression and panic attacks. I've reconnected with my spirituality. And I think that I can make things better even if my family won't or can't. And that's all that matters to me now. So anyway, goodnight and goodluck! Hope to hear from all of you. >:3

Oh So Awesome DA friends (no order just typed in random):


If you aren't on here I am so very sorry, just send me a message and I'll add you on I love all of you .
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